WHEN MAFIA LOVES ANGEL
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WHEN MAFIA LOVES ANGEL
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Love at first sight does exist.
~ Cinta pada pandangan pertama itu ada. ~


There are the times when we feel our worlds are upside down. There are the moments that we are feeling so blue and gloomy. There are the situations when we do not know what to do and just want to run away from everything. There are the conditions that our hearts being hurt and all you want to do just screaming out loud or crying so hard all day.
Everybody ever experiences the bad days. Everyone ever feels broken hearts. Every person ever has some loses. Every individual ever gets sicks or unpleasant feelings.
When all those bad things come, it is ok to take some breaks for a while. It is ok for being lazy and do nothing for a moment. It is ok to cry all day and let your negative feelings flow out from your body. It is ok to take some rests and sleep all day.
Take time as much as you need them. Let the time heal you. Let your body heals by itself. Let your heart grows more stronger. Let your mind thinks clearly. Let your soul finds peacefully.
Like children learn how to walk, they fall sometimes, but they will stand up immediately and try to walk again and again. Like kids learn how to ride bikes, they may get some injuries in their legs or knees but they still try to ride the bikes over and over. People may lose something like their jobs or careers, but they can try to look for the better replacement. Individuals may break up with their partners or divorce with their spouses, but they can always fix their broken hearts and move on to better life. Persons may get sicks or accidents, but they can always heal their health in to better conditions.
We all need pain in our life. Without pain, our life will be empty and boring. There will not be up and down, just a plain and flat feeling. When we have pain, we know that there are something going wrong. There are some problems need to be fixed. There are some conditions need to be done.
Pain is like an alarm for us to stop for a while from what we are doing at the moment, or we need to take some steps back if necessary. Pain that we are having when we are sick tell us that our bodies need our full attentions so we can take good care of ourselves. It tells us that there are something wrong happens in some parts of our bodies we need to cure or fix. It goes the same with what happens in our life. Pain that we experience from broken hearts indicate that there are something wrong occur in our relationships with our partners or our spouses. We need to consider them whether we are in healthy relationship or not and what we should do to compromise them. Pain that we get from losing jobs, careers or possession of something, remind us that what we had before might be not suitable for us.
When pain comes, just accept it. Embrace it. Enjoy the process. But do not forget to open your heart. Open your mind. There are so much possibilities out there. Sometimes you lose something small to get better ones instead. Or maybe the best ones yet will come. You never know.
Pain is such a useful thing. It corrects us when we are wrong. It shapes our character. It teaches us that we are alive. ~ C.J. Redwine ~
“Good morning.”
Text messages coming from Mark just now. Anna is still sleepy at that time but she forces herself to reply the text with the smile on her face.
“Good morning baby, how are you today ?”
Five minutes. Ten minutes passed. No reply from Mark.
So typical of him. I better go back to sleep again before go to work in couple hours.
Another day passed.
“Hey you… Kiss… Kiss…” ~ From Mark.
Anna grabs her phone so fast and reply it right away. Her fiancee is so busy lately. She just cannot think why Mark does not have even a little time to message her during the day.
“I miss you baby. You have been very busy lately :(”
Again, no reply. As always.
The reply comes at 3 hours later.
“Yes, I have been so busy.”
Just it.
“You don’t miss me, do you ?”
She hopes that Mark will answer her soon. But she is wrong.
It is a sunny day out. Three besties have some chit chat in the afternoon at the coffee shop.
“So Anna, is Mark still busy with his work ?” Jess looks into Anna’s eyes while zipping her coffee late.
“Umm yes, but I know he still cares about me.” Anna nods slightly but she looks like she is not sure about it.
“Anna, if man does care with his lover, he will find some times to talk to you, eager to find out about your feelings and activities each day, no matter how busy he is.” George is starring at her before he continues eating his tuna sandwich.
“I know. But he is already tired during the day, maybe he sometimes falls asleep when he gets home, before he has the chance to contact me.” Anna stands up for Mark.
“If I were you, I would find a better man that can treat you well, Anna. You don’t deserve this.” Jess is trying to open her mind about the situation.
“No, Jess. I’m sure it is just for a temporary. Mark is my fiancee now. We have been together for two years. I believe he will take good care of me when he gets a better job with less paper works like he has now. Actually, I have searched some vacant jobs for him that can give him more flexible working hours, so he can spend more time with me.” Anna is smiling to her two best friends trying to convince them.
“Don’t worry, it’s gonna be alright.”
Finally finished this paper works job. I really don’t like it.
Mark prepares to go home. He takes his cell on the desk. There are some texts from Anna.
I will reply her in the morning.
“Hey babe, good morning.”
One hour passed. No reply.
Hmm… This is so not Anna.
“How are you sweetheart ?”
Still no reply.
Why is she not replying ? She must be at her work right now. Maybe she gets very busy. I will try again at lunch time.
“Are you busy honey ?”
Lunch time is over. Not even a single reply coming.
“Seriously Anna ?” Mark types the texts to Anna again and sends them.
Sigh. She has been moody again. Whatever. Don’t care.
I won’t contact her for the next couple days. I’m so tired of her crappy mood swings.
It has been a week since Mark’s last texts to Anna. Mark finally decides to call her.
“Hello, Anna ? What is wrong with you ?” Mark sounds upset.
“Hello, sorry, who is this ?” Anna’s voice is a bit confuse.
“Don’t play game with me Anna. You’re seriously dumb !” Mark is really upset now.
“But, who are you ?” Anna replies with tone of voice sounded cold.
“Hey, I’m Mark !” Mark is so angry.
“Fine !” He hangs up the phone.
When Mark is about to call Anna again, his phone is suddenly ringing.
“Hello, may I speak to Mark, please ?”
“Yes, this is Mark.”
“Hello Mark, I’m Dave from In Health Insurance, we have a vacant position for Sales Manager. We would like to arrange some time for you to do the job interview in our office, if you are interested ?”
“Yes sure. I’m interested.” Mark feels happy to receive the call, but he is wondering how that guy gets his name and contact number from.
“How about tomorrow morning at 8 am ? I will text you our office address.”
“Sounds good. I will be there, Mr. Dave.”
“By the way Mark, I’m really sorry to hear about your fiancee Anna. She got unlucky after she called us about that vacant job in our company. She was the one who referred you to us.”
Mark dials some numbers and wait for the other party to pick up.
Pick up Jess, pick up…
“Hello…” Jess is answering.
“Jess, what happened to Anna ?” Mark sounds so worried.
“Oh my God Mark, you didn’t know ?” Jess just does not believe what she heard.
“Just tell me, Jess.” Mark insists.
“Anna had an accident last week. Her head was pretty bad injured inside. The doctors said she is experiencing an amnesia, having a periodic memory loss. They predicts it starting two years ago when she just came into this city until she got the accident. She is recovering her condition in her parents hometown now, since she does not remember anything about living in here.” Jess explains the whole story with sad voice.
What ??? So that’s why Anna acting weird when she received the call…
Does it mean…
Mark’s phone is sliding off from his hand to the ground. He cannot sense anything for now.
His heart feels burning inside. Mark cannot think straight anymore. Life is so empty suddenly…
Do you ever imagine what the world would be like if Attention Seekers don’t exist ?
So peaceful because there is no one that drawing too much attention ?
Or in the contrary, so empty because there is no people that can lighten and cheer up the world for a bit ?
Well in between, we can take some good points from the Attention Seekers’ behavior and apply them to us, without getting excessive and in some good ways of course.
That 6 ideas can be :
1. They change their appearance a lot and usually do mismatch physical attributes to draw people attention where ever they go.
Sometimes the clothes they are wearing are not suitable to their body, like wearing the clothes or dresses too tight to expose what they have.
Wearing accessories that not match with their current outfit.
Or wearing costumes that do not suit to the situation they attend to.
Ideas : You can be unique and being yourself in wearing costumes and physical attributes that suit your personality with a good arrangement on all of those, depends on the event that you want to attend to.
2. Always talk about themselves in public
Where ever there is a crowd of people, they will always be there to monopolize the talks and tell everybody about everything that related to them.
They love to be the center of the conversation and enjoy the attention from people a lot.
Ideas : You can be the center of the crowd by talking about something that can draw their interests, not only talking about yourself but it is more about the interesting things you can share with them.
3. Setting a drama
Sometimes the Attention Seekers make up a drama so people can give fully attention to them, they can be trouble makers too at that time.
They will do anything in purpose to make people do care about them and do what ever they want.
Ideas : You can set a condition or situation that can make people give some attentions to you, maybe can be a little bit of drama, but in a good way.
For example, you need to gather a fund raising to help the orphanage so you let people know about their condition that need help immediately.
You can show them how you feel and your thoughts about the orphan child, and tell them how they would be if we do not help them.
It is ok to show them your emotions too, if you think it will help you to make them give some donations to the orphanage.
It is for the greater good anyway.
4. Post status in social media about themselves and doing selfies a lot
Attention Seekers only think about themselves, so they like to post status in social media as many as they can about what they are doing, where they go, how they feel about something, whom they are with, and many others.
Also they tend to do selfies a lot, every time, everywhere, and post them into their social media so people can give comments to their posts.
Ideas : You can post status in social media about yourself and doing selfies in a proper way, with good reasons to do it, also with the additional purposes of sharing info.
For instance, you are in the coffee shop hang out with your besties, you find some delicious coffee and yummy cakes there that you think you would like to share the info to other people.
So it is good to share them in your social media, not only you talk about yourself but you can tell people about something useful too, that people may like or need the info also.
5. Brag about their achievements
They usually like to brag about their achievements toward their goals, whether they reach the achievements in a proper way or not.
As long as they can brag about something, they do not care what people say about it.
They just need other people to congratulate them of what they achieve.
Ideas : You can tell people about your achievements that you reach with your best efforts and not for bragging purpose, it is more important to show people about your hard work all this time and also you can motivate others to do the same with you, by letting them know how you do it transparently.
6. Show off about their new items they bought recently
The Attention Seekers like to buy decent items with expensive prices so they can announce them to public about their wealth.
Ideas : You can tell people about new expensive things you recently bought, with the purpose of sharing info that may be useful to them.
It is like you let people know about the sophisticated features that your new gadget have, so people can get some useful knowledge from it, without thinking about you only being bragging to them.
“Seek respect, not attention. If you get respect, the attention will come to you accordingly.” ~ Zanetta Jeanne ~
Do you like to play games ?
Many people like or even love to play games, whether they are console games, computer games, online games or others.
There is a wide range of age for games players, can be kids, teenagers, or adults. Also valid for both genders too, like boys and girls, or male and female.
All of game players have their own reasons to play, some people do it for just hobby but some others can be get too much attached into the games.
You may curious to know what makes them jump into hours spending their time playing games.
Here are 9 Secrets of Gamer you want to know about.
1. Game is a Hobby
Some people play games the same as their hobbies. Either they are football games, racing car games, dancing games and many more.
They have hobbies in real life and they like playing their hobbies too in the games.
2. It is refreshing and relaxing
By playing games, people can get refreshing and relaxing after doing their activities in the day.
They can release the stress and forget the problems for a while.
3. Me time
Sometimes people just need their time alone and spend their quality time for themselves.
Some of them spend their time in playing games, which they can enjoy themselves playing and sit back for a while without other people in real bothering them.
4. Game life is better than reality
Sometimes in gamer’s mind, game life can be so much better than the reality they have.
They can control their games easier than their life.
Some of them make the games as their escape places from their problems that they are facing in their real life.
5. Meet new people
Some of gamer are introvert in their real life.
They tend to be shy of meeting with new people and cannot express their feelings in the public.
They feel so much better of getting new friends in the games because they do not have to do face to face with new people, and therefore they can have communication better about expressing their feelings.
6. Better in doing coordination and strategy planning
For some games, playing them will need some great coordination, tactics or strategy planning.
Some gamer like to playing games because it has something related to do in their real life, whether it is related to their real life jobs or careers, their business, their families or other things.
7. Something that they look forward to
Some people can be so much addicted into games because they have already play them long enough, day by day. Some gamer even play them long hours a day.
The games become their addiction, they look forward to play games everyday.
Some of them can be so much attached to the games.
8. Spending idle / spare time into fun
By some people, they play game when they have their idle time so they will not get bored to pass the time by doing something fun.
They can play the games during their queuing of something, waiting at the doctor’s, during the break or other spare time.
9. Make them happy and healthy
Some people seek happiness through games, they play them to feel happy about something.
Happy of winning, happy of meeting new friends, happy of some game achievements and many others.
Playing games can be exercised to their brains too, keep their minds used for thinking and also feel happiness can make them healthy.
“Games shouldn’t only be fun. They should teach or spark an interest in other things.” ~ Hideo Kojima ~
I love your awesome blue eyes, they are like the ocean, relaxing me.
I love your firmly native accent, it is so manly, I never can get enough of it.
I love the accent when you call my name, I feel very special to you.
I love the way you laugh and chuckle sometimes, really make my day.
I love you being silly for me, really make me laughing hard.
I love the way you make me happy, I cannot stop smiling everyday because of you.
I love the way you love me, make me wanna be with you always and forever.
Above all, I love everything in you, and I love you so much, I really do with all my heart.
Watching The Other Woman movie, stars Cameron Diaz, Leslie Mann, Kate Upton and Nikolaj Coster-Waldau just now makes me wondering if there are many people like Mark (Nikolaj Coster-Waldau) in this world, who has many girlfriends beside his wife, and can live romantic life with all those women without getting caught and feeling guilty about it.
I know it is not only man does that but also woman, so i am talking about the people who have the habit and addiction in having partners more than one person.
It makes me curious to know, why can’t they stick with only one spouse or partner ?
After gathering some information about that interesting topic, i found out below reasons why people are doing it.
1. They get bored easily
Some people have tendency to get bored easily with many things they have or do.
They need some variations a lot with their life in order to make their life colorful.
If they cannot find any new interests in their current partners, they are likely to search for new ones to find new sparks.
2. They like more on the adventure
When a man or a woman are still in the dating process, the process itself make them feel exciting to get to know each other and exploring new things together.
Then when they already become couples, they already know each other so well that can make the excited feel vanishing slowly.
3. Need more attention and to be loved always
There are some people who need more attention than others from their spouses and need more love every time they need.
If their partners are in busy situation and cannot give them attention that they want, they will seek for others to get attention and to shower them with love their needed.
4. Seeking perfection
They are likely looking for perfection in their partner’s types.
It can be their looks, their characters, their intelligents, their attitudes and many more.
If there are others that have more qualities compared with the ones they have now, they will pursue them, also they seems never be satisfied.
They will always look for more beautiful / handsome, more clever, more wealthy, more elegant person, etc.
5. Feel something missing in the heart, there is always a hole in it and feel empty inside
This is a type of person that often feel lonely in party or in a crowd.
They sometimes feel there is always a hole in their hearts need to be filled, so they will search the right person for it.
And they will continue to do so and never stop.
6. Don’t want to feel lonely
Because of their loneliness feeling, they want to have someone in every place and every time they need so they will not feel lonely anymore.
If their partners cannot provide it, they will likely find others that can fulfill their needs.
There are risks in doing like that continuously and it is not fair for their spouses / partners getting cheated like that.
How long they will do it and how long it will last, if they are not willing to change their thoughts about it, it is gonna be a never ending cycle for them.
We all should be thankful for what we have now and accept our partners with all their strengths and flaws.
Try hard to accept them just the way they are.
Find many things that can make us happy being with them and the ones that can make us so grateful to have them.
We do not want at the end our life being alone because there will be no one beside us if they already know that is how we treat them and that is what kind of person we are.
Be thankful for all you have now, because you never know what happen next.
Do you believe in soulmate ? Or is it just a fairy tale ?
I got a call from a friend not a long ago.
He told me happily that he finally finds his soulmate that he has been waiting for his life.
He met this girl four years ago at the community gathering and they become friends after that.
The truth is, he is already falling in love with her from the moment he met her, but since she only considers him as just a friend, he kept his feeling with him and did not tell her about it.
For some reasons, they grew apart and did not communicate with each other over the years because of their own activities and life.
Actually, he has been looking for her when he lost contact, but he could not find her anywhere like she just vanished from the earth.
Just before his birthday, the girl suddenly showed up and contact him again.
He just could not believe it. His lovely princess is coming back to him.
It is the best birthday present ever.
And he does not want to miss the chance this time.
Second chance is very hard to get.
He told her all about his feelings, how he loves her so much from the beginning, and ask her to be his princess forever.
He promises her that he will take care of her for the rest of their life and ask her not to leave him again ever.
The girl was very touched by his will and commitment, and admitted that she has the same feelings about him too.
So they become couple now, i hope their love will last forever and they will live happily ever after.
Soulmate is not just a fairy tale. It is really happened.
Can be the person you know or a stranger at first.
Can be near or live far away from you.
Can be easy to find or hard to get.
Can realize at the moment you meet that person or years after.
Can come as a first chance, second chance, and so on.
But no matter what, at the end, your soulmate always come to you.
Because it is like missing piece of puzzle, complete you.
It is like your other half, you cannot live without.
It is like a day and a night, the sun and the moon.
You complete each other, with both of your strengths and flaws.
Just believe in it, and your soulmate will come your way.
“Just you and me against the world. Always and forever.” ~ Jessica Sorensen ~